Monday, September 28, 2009

THE CHASE chapt 1

BOY MEETS GIRL, BOY AND GIRL FALL IN LOVE AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER. NOW OF COURSE WE ALL KNOW THATS NOT ALWAYS THE CASE. AND IN MOST INSTANCES, ITS THE FURTHEST FROM THE TRUTH. WHAT HAPPENS, WHEN YOU FALL FOR SOMEONE AND THEY DON'T FALL FOR YOU. EVERYTHING THAT YOU THOUGH AND BELIEVED ABOUT THIS PERSON HAS BECOME A LIE. YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW THEM, BUT WHAT YOU FOUND OUT WAS THAT YOU WERE JUST A SMALL PIECE OF THE PUZZLE IN THEIR GAME. AND THIS GAME WAS MORE DANGEROUS THAN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE. YOU COULD LOSE YOUR HEART, YOU COULD LOSE YOUR FEELINGS, AND MOST OF ALL YOU COULD LOSE YOUR LIFE. WHAT DO YOU DO? WHAT CHOICE WOULD YOU MAKE? HOW WOULD YOU REACT AND MOST IMPORTANTLY HOW WOULD YOU RESPOND. WE'LL ANSWER ALL OF THESE AND MORE IN MY LATEST BLOG MYSTERY THE CHASE. ITS EVERYTHING YOU EXPECTED IT TO BE AND EVERYTHING YOU DIDN'T EXPECT IT TO BE.

IT MUST HAVE BEEN 2 YEARS NOW THAT YOU WERE MARRIED. YOU HAD THE WONDERFUL HOUSE IN THE SUBURBAN NEIGBORHOOD OF NEWYORK. YOU HAD THE PERFECT JOB, AND YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD THE PERFECT SPOUSE. WHAT HAPPENED IS THE QUESTION? OR SHOULD I SAY HOW DID THIS HAPPEN. IT WAS A MONDAY AND YOU WOKE UP NEXT TO ONE ANOTHER AS USUAL WITH A SMILE AND A KISS ON THE LIPS. YOU BOTH HURRIED TO GET DRESSED SO THAT YOU WOULDN'T
BE LATE FOR WORK AS YOU BOTH LOCKED EYES AND SAID THE WORDS I LOVE YOU FROM JUST A FEW FEET AWAY. YOU NEVER WOULD HAVE GUESSED THAT THIS WOULD BE THE LAST TIME THAT YOU EVER SAW THEM. IT STARTED OFF AS A NORMAL MORNING, YOU HIT THE NORMAL TRAFFIC ON THE FRANKLIN D ROOSELVELT. YOU STOPPED AT STARBUCKS RIGHT OUTSIDE OF BROOKLYN TO GET YOUR NORMAL COFFEE AND MUFFIN. YOU WENT TO WORK WITH A SMILE ON YOUR FACE. YOU WERE WALKING ON AIR. YOU AND YOUR SPOUSE HAD JUST BROUGHT A NEW HOME. YOU TRADED IN YOUR HONDA FOR A NEW HUMMER. YOU WERE FEELING GREAT. ABOUT HALFWAY THROUGH THE DAY, YOU DECIDED TO CALL YOUR SPOUSE UP ON THE PHONE TO SEE IF THE BOTH OF YOU COULD HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER. NOW WHEN YOU CALLED SOMEONE ELSE ANSWERED. YOU CERTAINLY THOUGHT THAT MAYBEY THEY HAD BEEN AWAY FROM THEIR DESK, BUT WHEN YOU ASKED FOR YOUR SPOUSE THEY TOLD YOU THAT THEY HADN'T SHOWN UP THAT MORNING AND THAT THEY HADN'T CALLED THE JOB OR ANYTHING. YOUR MOUTH DROPPED. YOU WERE SHOCKED AND SCARED ALL AT THE SAME TIME. YOU STARTED TO PANIC. YOU QUICKLY DIALED THEIR CELL PHONE NUMBER ONLY TO FIND THAT IT WAS DISCONNECTED. HOW COULD THIS BE? YOU STARTED TO QUESTION. YOU BOTH WERE UNDER THE SAME PLAN. SO YOU THEN QUICKLY CALLED THE CELL PHONE COMPANY AND TO YOUR SURPRISE THEY TOLD YOU THAT YOU HAD PUT IN AN ORDER TO CANCEL THE SERVICE ON THIS PARTICULAR DAY 30 DAYS AGO. AND ALTHOUGH YOU DENIED IT REPEATEDLY, THEY KEPT INSISTING THAT YOU DID. YOU THEN CALLED THE POLICE AND THEY SAID THAT THEY WOULD MEET YOU AT YOUR HOUSE TO GO OVER SOME QUESTIONS OF THE WHERE ABOUTS OF YOUR SPOUSE. YOU QUICKLY DROVE HOME LIKE A SPEED DEAMON, DODGING CARS AND RUNNING RED LIGHTS BUT WHO COULD BLAME YOU. YOU WERE SCARED, YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. AS YOU GOT THERE THE POLICE WERE WAITING FOR YOU OUT SIDE OF YOUR HOME. AS YOU OPENED THE DOOR TO WALK IN , YOUR MOUTH DROPPED YOU COULDN'T BELIEVE. YOU JUST STOOD THERE IN AWE.
WONDERING WHY? STAY TUNE NEXT CHAPTER

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

SHOWING LOVE BABY!

ONE LOVE GOES TO:

GOTTA SHOW LOVE TO MY WIFE LISA, SHE'S THE QUEEN OF THE HOUSE AND WIFE AND THE ONE THAT STANDS BESIDE ME, I LOVE THAT PUNK

MY DAUGHTER ELIZABETH, DADDY LOVES HIS PRINCESS ALWAYS

MOMS, WELL YOU KNOW SHE GETS ON MY NERVES BUT WHAT ELSE IS NEW, THE DORK

MY BEST FRIEND THOMAS, YEP SUP BRO WE ALWAYS HAVE EACH OTHERS BACK

TO MY FAM, JOHNSON FAM THATS WHAT WE ARE BABY, GOTTA LOVE THAT, LOVE YOU ALL

TO MY LITTLE BROTHER VINCENT, ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU KIDDO

TO MY PHILLY PEEPS, THANKS FOR ALWAYS CHECKING ON THE KID

TO MY GOONIES, HEY YOU GUYS! YOUR EITHER A GOONIE OR YOUR NOT A FAN OF THE 80'S

TO KWAME, THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE BRO

TO TOM, DAMN MAN WHERE THE HELL ARE MY COOKIES LOL

TO MY TWITTER PEEPS , LITTLE WOODSY, AND LENA, YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME

TO THE KING FAMILY, LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR US

TO ALL MY BLOG READERS, THANKS FOR KEEPING UP WITH ME, SORRY I KNOW ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE WRITTEN BUT WHEN I'M INSPIRED I WRITE

TO MY FACEBOOK PEEPS, 1 LOVE

GO STEELERS DAMMIT!

TO GOD, THANKYOU FOR BLESSING ME AND MY FAMILY

TO MY UNBORN SON, GOT MY FIRST LOOK AT YOU TODAY, YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, LOVE YOU BABY!

OK PEEPS STAY TUNE FOR MY NEXT BLOG, "THE CHASE" COMMING UP SOON!

SEE YALL IN NOVEMBER,,IT WAS WRITTEN

TAKING THE LEAD..A MAN'S DANCE TO THE TOP chapt 6

at the tender age of 34, yes i can say that i am successful, but because of my hunger for success and the ability to gain more, hell no i'm not satisfied. i'm grateful but satisfied i think not. i think of the road i took to get here and how now i should feel like i'm on top of the world. but if i start to feel like that , that feeling in itself makes me feel like i have accomplished all that i can and for me thats never gonna happen. i could be 89 years old and i would still be trying to accomplish more things better things. and this drive started many years ago. i saw racism , i've experienced it first hand. i know what its like to pay more for a car loan than others because basically in some people's opinion i was never suppose to get it in the first place. i know what its like to be in bad relationships to give your heart to someone only for them to play soccer ball with it and score the winning goal like a fake ass jess in bend it like beckham GOAL! i have been through alot, and i took these experiences to heart so that i could learn from my mistakes and learn from the mistakes of others as well. and what i learned was that i was not only good. but i was DAMN GOOD! at that. and it felt good to finally start to succeed. i mean lests be real people, being broke is a bitch! i hated going through that. i hated getting my heart stomped on by girls that now want my number, you've got to be kidding me right. i hated being looked at funny when i would go to jc penny and charge a christmas gift and the manager would ask me for 5 forms of id, my social security number, family history, and a urine sample. its crazy man. but yet i've been through all of that shit and i am still able to keep a level head. the question is always how? but i'll answer that with why?

you see when climbing the ladder of life, you get to hear so many stories of others, some good some bad, but because most of the ones i heard were bad i put myself in 3rd gear when it came to my life and then i was off. yes i became a man. a man that we as men should have been from the jump. and i'm not bragging i'm convinced. what you want in life is always attainable. your goals can always be reached. set your sights high and climb for them because that is what being a man is all about.

TAKING THE LEAD...A MAN'S DANCE TO THE TOP chapt 5

decision making can be very difficult at times , we all know this but it is necessary and a must in our every day lives. for instance if you are married and you see someone very attractive that is giving you the 5 second stare down. you have two choices, you can either walk away or walk toward. as men, so many of us walk toward because we just don't want to give up the women, but when you stop to think about it with the head up top and not the head down below, you'll find that the same woman that is giving you the stare gave about 20 other dudes the stare as well. in other words, your nothing special. so yes the correct choice needs to be made. lets say you have a friend, and you guys go way back man to the days where you were wearing stripe socks and ripped shorts and it was ok back then because you both grew up poor as hell. and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. and all of a sudden this friend of yours decides that it is ok to disrespect you and your family and he/she is suppose to get a free pass because they are your friends. hmmm once again a choice has to be made. you see the choices we make help to define us. the hardest thing in life is to make the correct choice. i mean think about it as men when your having sex, it could be so damn good that you get stuck and start to ponder whether or not you should pull out to achieve that 5 seconds of fame or stay in and gain maybey 2 more seconds at best. but i guess the thought never crossed your mind to wear a freakin condom in the first place. thus there still is a choice that needs to be made.

the basic concept of learning to take the lead is taking control of your own life. never let someone elses thoughts or actions dictate what you decide to do. think for yourself and yourself only. this builds character and helps a young man evolve to an adult. once you are able to accomplish this then the hardest task is behind you but now the difficult road begins and thats learning how to climb the ladder of life. as we all know life maynot always be fair but still we must climb that ladder in order to be successful. and we'll start this climb in my next chapter comming up next.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

TAKING THE LEAD...A MAN'S DANCE TO THE TOP chapt 4

its funny sometimes when i think about when i grew up. i can remember my father never being there, hell i didn't meet the idiot until i was 25, and i probably have been typing this blog for more minutes than i actually saw him. and when i think about that period of my life i start to smile because i have beat the odds, like most men should and can. i didn't need a sorry ass excuse for a man in my life to become one. as a matter of fact his ass is the reason that drove me to be more of a man because i just could never pattern my life after some shit like that. and yes some people are probably saying wow did he just call his father a piece of shit. in case you missed it, here it is again, he was a piece of shit. and not just the solid shit either we're talking the shit that clogs up the toilet. and to see how far i've come from that, makes me wonder why more men won't stand the fuck up and become men. stop making all of these kids if you can't support them, and we're not talking a trip to the barbershop once a month. a guy once complained to me about getting hit up for 400.00 a month for child support. i told this dumb ass that i paid 220.00 a week for daycare for my daughter , plus anything else she needed so your 400.00 isn't shit when it comes to raising a child. yeah i put his ass under the bus, hell i could have done an oil change on his stupid ass. oh and don't you just love the ones who have like 3 kids and all by different women, hell if you were going to do that you mind as well have got them at walmart for a freakin 3 for 1 deal.

being a man is serious business, you have to do it 24 hours a day, no days off, no holidays , no vacations, and no extra pay its the one job that is extrememely challanging but has its benefits along the way and just like the recommeneded daily allowance, its is hella good for you. its important to understand that at some point you must take the lead of your own life before you can lead others. you must first establish yourself before you can give advice. and this is where we get to taking the lead and how we go about doing that as men. comming up next chapter

TAKING THE LEAD...A MAN'S DANCE TO THE TOP chapt 3

as men , we seem to think that the world revolves around us. now of course it doesn't but even as some commit to marriage and kids they seem to still think that this is possible. and to sum this theory up in a short sentence, its called taking a back seat. yep, just like my home girl rosa parks you gotta take a seat in the back in order to grow as a person. here is the deal. as a man you are suppose and i stress the word suppose to be a good provider for your family. which means believe it or not, you sometimes have to put the things you want personally on hold to make sure that your family is being taken care of. and this is a must when it comes to roles that we as men must assume. this is all part of the growth of becomming a man. learning to make good choices and sacrafices, in other words you have nothing comming so you can forget it! and thats not necessarily a bad thing. now here is the flip side. you have men that will look after themselves first, a girlfriend second , and way down the line they may just look at their own family. and can you blame them, well its a choice, obviously the wrong one but it still is a choice and women that tend to think nothhing of themselves, tend to make these choices very easy for men. its like why get married when i can play house for free. some women give it up so damn quick that their pussy doesn't even get a chance to breath before re-entry. and men find this attractive because their getting sex. nope. its crazy because when all things point in the right direction men seem to get stuck on stupid and go completly the other way. and they call themselves men. hmmm yeah we'll have to see about that, next chapter

Friday, September 18, 2009

TAKING THE LEAD A MAN'S DANCE TO THE TOP chapt 2

WHAT MAKES A MAN. HMMM. SOME FEEL THAT THEY ARE MEN BECAUSE THEY CAN GET LOTS OF WOMEN. ALTHOUGH IF YOU SEE SOME OF THE WOMEN THAT THEY ARE GETTING YOU'LL THINK TWICE ABOUT ANOUNCING THAT SHIT. BUT SERIOUSLY HOW DOES A MAN TAKE HIS LEAD IN HIS RACE TO THE TOP. WELL NO DOUBT THE SHIT IS HARD WORK. PROBABALY THE HARDEST SHIT KNOWN TO MAN. AND IT STARTS WITHIN. THE TRAINING ISN'T EASY. ITS ACTUALLY A LIFE LONG PROCESS. MEANING FOR ALL OF THE ASSES THAT DON'T THINK THEY ARE ASSES BUT ACTUALLY ARE BECAUSE ALL THEY HAVE TO DO IS LOOK BEHIND THEM, ITS A LIFE LONG PROCESS. BECAUSE THROUGH OUT LIFE, YOU NEVER STOP LEARNING. YOU NEVER STOP GROWING AS A PERSON. I MEAN THINK ABOUT IT. THAT GIRL IN THE MINI SKIRT THAT YOU SAW AT 21 DOESN'T SEEM AS ATTRACTIVE AS THEY DID WHEN YOUR 31. REASON BEING YOU HAVE BILLS MAN. YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T JUST AFFORD TO SPEND A FEW DOLLARS AT THE DOUBLE T DINER FOR A QUICK FUCK THAT MAY ONLY LAST YOU 5 MINUTES DEPENDING ON WHETHER OR NOT YOU HAVE BLUE BALLS OR GET PUSSY ON A REGULAR BASIS. BETTER BE CAREFUL BECAUSE UNLIKE PINNOCHIO YOUR SHIT WON'T GROW IT WILL SHRINK! ITS FUNNY. I CAN LOOK BACK AT ALL THE WOMEN I DATED AND MOST OF THEM WEREN'T WORTH A SHIT. BUT YEAH I MEAN COME ON, LIKE MOST I WAS YOUNG AND HORNY AND HELL I SAW WHAT MOST MEN SAW. NICE LEGS , NICE ASS, AND THE FACT THAT EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T HAVE TO USE GAME, I KNEW I COULD HIT IT. AND SO I DID AS MOST YOUNG MEN DO. BUT AS WE GROW OLDER OUR WHOLE PERCEPTION OF WOMEN AND OURSELVES MUST CHANGE. NOW DON'T GET ME WRONG. THERE ARE EXCEPTIONS TO EVERY RULE. LIKE FOR INSTANCE I KNOW THIS GUY WHO I USE TO CLUB WITH BACK WHEN I WAS 21, AND THIS DUDE IS STILL CLUBING. TAKING HIS CLOTHES TO THE DRY CLEANERS TO GET THAT EXTRA STARCH AS IF THE GIRLS IN THE CLUBS ARE GOING TO NOTICE THAT SHIT. I CAN HEAR IT NOW. "THATS A NICE SHIRT BUT LOOK AT THE STARCH ON THOSE SLEEVES." NEGRO PLEASE! NO ONE CARES ABOUT THAT SHIT. REMEMBER THE GIRL WHO WOULD ONLY GO OUT WITH GUYS THAT HAD NICE CARS , WELL NOW THEY'LL GET IN A HORSE AND BUGGY IF NEED BE JUST TO STAY OFF THE FUCKING BUS STOP. OH HOW TIMES HAVE CHANGED AND SO HAVE WE AS MEN. WE KNOW LONGER ARE THE ONES WHO SHOULD BE LOOKING FOR DATES. WE ARE HUSBANDS AND FATHERS AND NEED TO TAKE THAT RESPONSIBILITY SERIOUSLY. THESE ARE NOT ONLY OUR LIVES WE'RE TALKING ABOUT. THESE ARE THE LIVES OF OUR CHILDREN AND WIVES THAT ARE AFFECTED BY EVERY DECISION WE MAKE. AND THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT TO KNOW. AND THIS IS WHERE IT ALL STARTS . KNOWING THAT CHANGE IS A MUST AND ACCEPTING IT AND TAKING ON THAT CHALLANGE . STAY TUNE AS WE DIG MORE INTO THIS TOPIC NEXT CHAPTER COMMING UP SOON.

TAKING THE LEAD, A MAN'S DANCE TO THE TOP chapt 1

AS MEN WE ALL ASSUME DIFFERENT ROLES IN LIFE. THESE ROLES HOWEVER DO NOT DEFINE US, BUT THEY DO MAKE UP OUR ROAD TO SUCCESS. ITS FUNNY YOU CAN LOOK ON A CORNER ANY GIVEN DAY AND SEE A STRUGGLING MOTHER ON THE BUS STOP. SHE HAS KIDS STANDING BESIDE HER. YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT IT BUT ITS HER ROUTINE. SHE HAS TO DO WHAT SHE HAS TO DO. WHICH MAY INCLUDE GETTING UP AT 5AM , GETTING HER KIDS READY FOR SCHOOL AND DAY CARE, GETTING ON THE BUS, DROPPING THEM OFF AND HEADING TO WORK. ONLY TO PULL 8 HOURS PLUS MANDATORY OVERTIME, AND DO THE EXACT SAME THING WHILE HEADING HOME. IS THIS A REALITY? WELL OF COURSE IT IS. AND MANY MEN STAND BY AND WATCH THIS SHIT DEVELOP. WHY IS THE QUESTION. IS IT OUT OF FEAR OR PURE LAZINESS. I MEAN LETS BE REAL, YOU FUCKED HER, THE SEX WAS GREAT, BUT WHEN THE BABY CAME YOU DECIDED SHE WASN'T WORTH THE FIVE SECONDS OF FAME THAT CAUSED YOU TO HAVE THE CHILDREN IN THE FIRST PLACE. AND AS MEN IS THIS ACCEPTABLE. HAS THIS BECOME THE STANDARD. FOR US TO BECOME WEEKEND FATHERS AND BIRTHDAY DADS. WHAT THE FUCK? LOOK WITHIN YOURSELF. ASK YOURSELF WHY THIS IS. ARE YOU A MAN THAT IS SO DIFFERENT THAN THE DRUG DEALER ON THE CORNER WHO CUTS DOWN A 1/4 COCAIN ONLY TO BREAK IT INTO SMALL PIECES TO MAKE A G-PACK, TO TRY TO BREAK EVEN. ARE YOU SO DIFFERENT THAN THE GUY WHO IS WITH A GIRL RAISING HER KIDS WHILE IGNORING YOUR OWN AND WATCHING THEM FADE INTO EXSISTENCE. YES WHAT IS THE STANDARD. WELL THE WAY I VIEW IT IS AS MEN WE MUST EXCEED THE STANDARD AT ALL COSTS. IT IS OUR DUTY TO DO SO, OUR PURPOSE. THIS IS A ROLE THAT WE MUST ASSUME AS FATHERS , AS LIFE PARTNERS AS WE ARE HUSBANDS TO OUR WIVES, AND MOST OF ALL ADULTS AS WE GROW FROM KIDS TO MEN. STAY TUNE NEXT CHAPTER PEOPLE.