being 33, life felt like it had turned a corner for me finally. financially i had arrived. and i love that expression because when you come from what i've come from and you finally are able to stand strong among the rest, well it makes you feel good about yourself, it makes you feel proud. it makes you feel like all the hard work, all of the long nights of wondering how you were gonna pay your bills were finally comming to an end. i remember dating girls that were only about money or hanging with dudes that would brag about the money that had at the time but now this was real life this was where everything counted and i was standing tall, as far as the rest of them all i can say is dayum what a shame. i'm not one to brag so i will never do that. i will always be humble and grateful knowing that me and lisa and our children are very blessed to be where we are. but we fought for this. it damn sure wasn't handed to us. we went through so much and now we were where we wanted to be. we were able to give ourselves and elizabeth the family life we always wanted.
you see being a minority means one thing survival. you have to know how to do that because your not gonna be handed a damn thing unless its bullshit and that you can find for free. i learned a long time ago that rules of society are set up for minorities to fail and thats why most do. they become content with their status and they don't keep reaching and trying. but you have to, you can never be content because while others have a free ride you have nothing. this certainly isn't a racial blogg this is reality. i've seen and lived through this. and you have to know the rules of the game before you play it. and you also have to play by these rules until you are able to stand on your own and make your own rules. and it feels good to do that. its like going to the bank and depositing 500 bucks the teller says to you thanks have a nice day. now try depositing 5,000 dollars and they don't know how to act, bank managers are racing from their lunch break to help you with anything you may need. in other words they are straight kissing your ass. to me, you should have treated me that way no matter how much i was depositing but this is where we are and how we live.
life was good , i couldn't complain, i was doing everything i needed to do to support my family and my marriage had survived some pretty rough obstacles. i remember my uncle sitting me down asking me at the time would i have anymore kids. i was like i'm not sure i'm just now getting things together. and he said" when your marriage is on track, everything clicks mentally and physically, and because of that your gonna have kids. a good marriage is baby making music, its just gonna happen." and guess what happen
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