30 plus volume 4

now i was 34 and to my surprise we found out that lisa and i were expecting our second child. i was scared at first because i had just finally been able to take a breath finacially. but i remembered that as long as you have faith in god, he will provide. 9 months later i found myself at gbmc for a second time and joshua matthew barnes was born. this was crazy, where elizabeth came out with a head full of hair and looked chinese, joshua came out with no hair with blue eyes. so i immediately looked at lisa and said hey is there something you want to tell me. but of course she gave me the clair huxtable stare and was like don't even go there. i knew that though. lisa may be a pain in the ass but she is as faithful as they come. come to find out her grandfather had blue eyes and so i guess joshua had inherited them from him. now they are green. we laugh about it to this day. now we had to nickname him so we called him butt , because he slept with his butt up in the air. pretty strange huh. but thats the barnes family.

i gotta say i felt good though in my mid 30's. i had my boy and my girl, all i needed was a dog to complete the set. it felt like all the nay sayers fuled me to do the right thing. it felt like i could teach my kids that anything is possible. i always wanted to be married with kids and have a house and vacations and all of that and i was able to achieve that. but i know inside i'm not done, i can't be. i have to continue to set new goals , i have to continue to try i have to continue to believe. and i want happiniess for everyone for my family for my friends, i just want everyone to be happy because i know what its like to be miserable and feel like the whole world is comming down on you. my life had changed i had grown up and believe me i needed to. things had gotten so much better for me, and to me thats the american dream. its not about materialistics. its about knowing that you can and proving to yourself that you can.

next up age 36 lets go!